Fair Reader, a long train of thought has for
some time carried me far away from here; so I shall make a shift to obey my
move and with a much shorter story than I should be telling if I had my insights
about me and tell you of a happening that took place in 1986, a year after my
mother became a Christian. Which her having a long-term relationship with a
married man, separated from his wife 40-years, was reproved by the amazing
grace with remark from heaven, and she had had enough to sense to understand
it. After becoming a Christian she had
asked me after a year’s time: was her relationship tedious, annoying and
irritating to heaven, and was there no way to find out if heaven approved or
disapproved? It seemed quite superfluous, but she wanted to please God, and his
heavenly host. I told her that I knew of a somewhat haughty way to go about
this, for clarity sake, that I had heard of, from the old sacred, or perhaps
they were Apocrypha scriptures. We will not dwell on her apprehension, she
agreed, and I said if this displeases heaven you will get a black ring around
the upper part of your forehead, all you need to do is look in the mirror for a
lengthily time, and ask if heaven is distressed by her behavior with this
ongoing relationship (knowing her
companion, was separated and she too had a lover, and it was based on financial
reasons, for this way of parting and remaining married just in name not in deed,
and both living in different cities).
I told her if that was too unpleasant for her, perhaps consulting a preacher on
this might suit her better. She who though was without shadow on this, intended
to see this through, once and for all. And she looked in the mirror like anyone
else. And said she saw nothing out of the ordinary but her face, and nothing
else. I told her it’s just been a few minute you must find heaven agreeable on
this, pray harder, look deeper, and give heart to the horrible clarification
you seek, and patience. And thus, she
bade to do as instructed.
After several more minutes longer, perhaps in all a total of fifteen,
she said is a gush of wind, “By, gosh…!” she had been somewhat frightened,
awed, and amazed all at once, “Yes I do have a black ring around my forehead,”
she claimed. She did no more than a
curious sheep would have done, had the sheep such abilities, and told her once
lover, and still married companion, he’d not be able to visit her to
include coming over to her apartment anymore,
unless they were married, or until his 40-year divorce was no longer in limbo,
where Earnest and his wife purposely put it; so it was finalized, and after she
told him this, she had full intentions to check the mirror again, never did she
see that black ring. And so she remained unmarried, and he with his clownishness,
even after his wife died would not marry the woman for whatever reasons I don’t
know, although I do know she was 70 at the time and he was 80—thereabouts, and he died shortly after that, whose names were Elsie, and his name being
Earnest. How unfortunate I thought, for both loved each other.
Both parties lived in Donkeyland for a decade or more, until the city of
St. Paul took Earnest’s land for a park, and Elsie sold her house in 1980 to
move into an apartment, to a would be killer, and used her money to travel,
taking her two sons with her wherever she went.
Be what
may, I feel Elsie sensed: she was like a lake rid of the mud, for she had gone
the distance, and she left behind all bonds that web up. She was now calm in
mind, calm in speech, pacified; in essence, between her and heaven and God,
worthy.
No: 1098/7-12-2015
