Friday, May 23, 2014

Old Man Bernabe (In English and Spanish)


English Version

Old Man Bernabe
(Based on actual Events, in the Satipo Jungle of Peru)


He came into the bedroom of his wooden shack in the small city of Satipo, in the Central Jungle of Peru, and opened up the window while the old man, Bernabe was still sleeping in the early part of the morning. The old man was trembling somewhat, his bronze face, had turned white, and he looked ill. And as he moved about it seemed to his lawyer and constant companion of sorts—that his aging body was more than aching, it was being drained of its life’s resources.
       “What’s the matter, Bernabe?” asked his lawyer in a low voice.
       The old man was only sixty-seven years old, looked near ninety, his eyelids trying to close as he opened them, “I’ve got a pain in my head,” he commented.
       “You better go back to sleep then,” said his pal and lawyer.
       “No. I’ll be all right.”
       Then he tried to sit up in bed, and did so half- hazard, all crooked like.
       “Wait out in the kitchen; I’ll see you when I’m dressed,” he murmured.
       When the old man appeared in the kitchen, fully dressed, he sat on a chair by the wooden stove, his grandson, fifteen years old had set a fire in the hearth for him, the soup was hot and the boy was outside feeding the animals: two dogs, a number of squabbling chickens, and twin like guinea pigs.
       The lawyer, stood looking at the old man, he looked quite ill and marred, and appeared to be despairing.  He put his hand on his forehead, to tell if he had a fever.
       “You should go back to bed,” said the lawyer, “you’re hot as a gander sweating to lay an egg.”
       “What is it?” asked Bernabe.                          
       “I can’t tell what your temperature is, but you should see a doctor!”
        “Do you want me to read the newspaper to you?” asked the lawyer.
       “All right; if you want to,” said the old man, wiping the sweat off his forehead with his sleeve, dirt deep embedded into dark brown rooted groves, called wrinkles in his face, his short black hair on all sides stood out and up as if he had seen the horns of the devil in some nightmare.
       He sat still in his chair and seemed very detached from what was happening around him, his eyes like watermelon seeds that is like black little dots with yellowish-white-fog surrounding them.
       The lawyer read aloud from the morning newspaper.  
       The boy came inside the shanty, “How do you feel, grandpa?” He asked.
       “Just the same as before—far anyhow,” he remarked.
       The boy sat a foot away from the old man, on a lower wooden stool; saw that his grandfather had taken the pills.  It would have been natural for him to go back to sleep, on such a hot summer’s midmorning, but he appeared restless, and not hungry at all, he never touched his mondongo  soup, —as the boy noticed, the old man strangely in some deep thought.
        
       It was a bright, hot day; the ground was covered with a light wetness from a rain shower the day before. Bernabe looked about the three lots that blended into his; he had cut down all the trees on two lots, the two he and the lawyer were trying to swindle the rightful owners out of. The party that owned the land had cut the bushes, and grass, and the bare ground had been cleaned of debris, a wooden fence was put up, and several times the old man had started to rip it back down—trying to take ownership of it, only for the young owner to confront the old man, and say in so many words: leave well enough alone, the property is not yours: but the old man had started his so called invasion several months earlier, and had no intentions to let up, he want the lots.
       The old man and the lawyer plotted to get the two lots, one way or the other, and when that wooden fence went up, the old man got red-eyed with anger, told the police, “He’s going to kill me.”
       Actually, he went as far as going to the police station making out a complaint as if he really didn’t dream up the escapade, and the courthouse, trying to set up the young man so he and the lawyer could steal the property nice and legal like (with the assistance of the Satipo municipality— which seemingly belong to some mafia, or Colombian, FARC-terrorists). 

       “What is it, what’s bothering you?” asked the grandson.
       “Who says there’s something bother me?” remarked the old man to his grandson, annoyingly, “mind your own business, you little whippersnapper!”

        It would have appeared to an onlooker the old man was really ill—and did seem to the boy at this juncture, the old man was waiting to die, perhaps waiting all day long, ever since he rolled out of bed. But the old man was tired, warn out from fighting for property that wasn’t his, to make his, and one can work their selves into such a frenzy, and he had. The boy not knowing what to do, just sat as a manikin in a corner of the kitchen.
       The old man had papers in his hand, signed papers the lawyer had given him to use to  fight in court with, signed receipts that just appeared out of nowhere one day and became official the next day (from the Satipo municipality—someone got payoff but who’s to say who?) And the old man looked at them, gazed at them, a foot in front of the lawyers face, and several feet from his grandson’s. He dropped the papers on the table, and slowly made it to his bed, where he laidback. His whole body ached, and he never got back up, ever.

No: 451 ((8-14-2009) (reedited 5-2014))





Spanish Version

El Anciano Bernabé
(Basado en acontecimientos reales)



Él entró en el dormitorio de la cabaña de madera del anciano, en la pequeña ciudad de Satipo en la Selva Central de Perú, y abrió la ventana mientras el viejo Bernabé todavía estaba durmiendo en las tempranas horas de la mañana. El anciano estaba un tanto temblando, su cara bronceada se había vuelto pálida y parecía enfermo. Mientras se movía en la cama, le parecía a su abogado y constante compañero—que su envejecido cuerpo, más que adolorido, estaba siendo drenado de los recursos de su vida.
       “¿Cuál es el problema Bernabé?”, él dijo con una voz baja.
       El anciano que sólo tenía sesenta y siete años, pero parecía cerca de noventa, dijo después de abrir sus ojos, sus párpados tratando de cerrarse mientras él los abría, pero su voluntad trataba de mantenerlos abiertos, “tengo un dolor en mi cabeza”, él comentó.
       “Es mejor que vuelvas a la cama”, dijo su amigo y abogado.
       “No, estaré bien”, él dijo y trató de sentarse en la cama con tanta dificultad. “Espérame en la cocina, te veré allí cuando esté vestido”, le dijo a su abogado en un murmullo.
       Cuando el anciano apareció en la cocina, totalmente vestido, se sentó en una silla por el fogón, su nieto, de quince años de edad, había prendido el fuego por él, la sopa estaba caliente y el chico estaba afuera alimentando a sus dos perros, gallinas y cuyes.
       El abogado se paró mirando al anciano, él lucía muy enfermo y abatido; él puso sus manos en la frente del anciano y podía decir que tenía fiebre.
       “Deberías de volver a la cama”, dijo el abogado, “tú estás realmente enfermo”.
       “¿Qué es esto?”, preguntó Bernabé.
       “No puedo decirte cuánto es tu temperatura, pero, ¡deberías ver a un doctor!”
       “En la mesa de la cocina, habían algunas pastillas; su nieto las había dejado allí para que él las tomara, y las instrucciones de cómo tomarlas. Una era para la fiebre (una clase de influenza, una forma mortal, gérmenes de la influenza estaban establecidas, había una epidemia ligera en Perú y en la ciudad de Satipo durante esos días); la otra pastilla era para el estrés (él había estado tratando, por varios meses, de adueñarse de los tres lotes de terreno colindantes con el suyo, él estaba tratando de invadir la propiedad un tanto abandonada, cortando los árboles y construyendo una cabaña, mientras los propietarios estaban lejos en Huancayo—a siete horas de viaje en autobús, y el abogado era su cómplice); la tercera pastilla era para prevenir la neumonía. Él tomó todas las pastillas con un sorbo de agua, luego fue a su caño, puso un estropajo debajo del chorro de agua y luego se lo puso en la frente, esto lo refrescaba y calmaba el dolor de cabeza, y ahora podía pensar con claridad.
       “¿Quieres que te lea el periódico?”, preguntó su abogado.
       “Muy bien, si quieres”, dijo el anciano. Su cara estaba pálida, la que una vez había sido bronceada, sus arrugas muy profundas y su cabello formaba a sus costados como dos cuernos.  Él estaba sentado inmóvil en su silla, y parecía distanciado de lo que se estaba leyendo, sus ojos eran pequeños, como dos puntos negros y su esclerótica estaba amarillenta rodeada de niebla.
       El abogado leyó en voz alta el periódico que su nieto lo había comprado y traído esta mañana y lo había puesto en la mesa de la cocina, para luego leérselo al anciano después de alimentar a los animales.
       El chico entró en la cabaña, “¿cómo te sientes abuelito?” él le preguntó.
       “Lo mismo que antes, por ahora de todas formas”, él comentó.
       El chico se sentó a treinta centímetros del anciano, en una pequeña banca de madera; vio que su abuelo había tomado las pastillas. Hubiera parecido normal que él volviera a dormir, en este día caluroso de verano, pero él parecía inquieto y sin hambre, él ni tocó la sopa—él chico lo había notado, y el anciano sólo miraba muy extrañamente alrededor.
       “¿Por qué no vuelves a la cama abuelito? Te despertaré más tarde”, dijo el chico.
       “Prefiero estar despierto. Creo que alguien trata de matarme por mi terreno”.
       Luego de un rato él le dijo al chico y al abogado, “ustedes no necesitan permanecer alrededor mío, estoy seguro que ustedes tienen otras cosas que hacer”.
       “No nos molesta”, dijo el abogado, hablando por el chico también.
       “Bien”, dijo el anciano, “creo que a mi me molestaría, por eso esto debería molestarte”.
       El abogado lo miró; pensó que talvez el anciano estaba un poco fastidiado por el calor del día, las pastillas, la fiebre y los problemas que lo rodeaban por los tres lotes de terreno. Y por eso el abogado dejó la cabaña por un rato.
       Era un día brillante, caluroso, la tierra estaba ligeramente húmeda por la lluvia de la noche anterior. Él miró a los tres lotes de terreno; él había cortado los árboles de dos de ellos, los dos que él y el abogado estaban tratando de robar de los verdaderos dueños.  Los dueños del terreno había cortado los arbustos y el gras, habían limpiado de escombros del suelo y habían puesto un cerco de madera; y muchas veces el anciano lo había derribado, sólo para que el joven propietario lo confrontara y dijera en pocas palabras: deja en paz, esta propiedad no es tuya.
       Él no le hacía caso al joven, y cuando el joven propietario se aparecería para chequear la propiedad de su familia, el anciano gritaba como si estuviera siendo golpeado por él y luego de ver al joven, él tendría ojos rojos llenos de ira.
       “Él va a matarme”, el anciano gritó a la policía y lo repitió dentro del juzgado, tratando de tenderle una trampa al joven para que de esta manera, él y su abogado, pudieran apropiarse de su propiedad como si fuera legalmente.
       En su casa el anciano se rehusaba a hablar con nadie, sólo con su abogado y su nieto.
       “Tú no puedes entrar”, él le diría al joven propietario, quien trataba de solucionar el problema, y a alguien más que deseara debatir el problema, contrario a su beneficio, de la misma forma no los dejaría; y ahora era un problema, el que nunca antes había sido un problema hasta que el anciano decidió un día, con su amigo abogado, apoderarse del terreno. Y ahora él estaba con la cara blanca, sus mejillas ruborizadas por el estrés y la fiebre, y mentalmente agotado de tanto ver, pensar y preocuparse, y preguntarse qué era lo siguiente por venir—lo desconocido.
       “¿Qué es esto?”, preguntó el nieto.
       “¿Quién dijo que hay algo mal?”, comentó el anciano a su nieto. Luego miró fijamente al chico, “yo no me preocupo, por eso tú no necesitas preocuparte, sólo desearía dejar de pensar y descansar algo”.
       “No pienses abuelito”, el chico le dijo, “sólo tómalo con calma”.
       “Lo estoy tomando con tranquilidad”, y miró fijamente por la ventana de la cocina. Era obvio que él estaba conteniendo algo, su cuerpo estaba rígido, rígido y tembloroso.
       “Toma este estropajo mojado abuelito, y límpiate la frente, esto te ayuda a pensar bien”.
       “¿Realmente piensas que esto ayudará?”
       “Siempre lo hace”, dijo el chico.
       Él se sentó de vuelta en la mesa, y tomó un poco de sopa fría.
       “¿A qué hora piensas que moriré?”, le preguntó al chico.
       “¿Qué?”
       “¿Cuánto más tengo que vivir?”
       “No vas a morir. Esto es ridículo, ¿porqué hablas de esa forma?”
       “Oh sí, lo haré. Lo puedo sentir en mi cabeza, mi corazón, mis pulmones, todo, lo puedo sentir por todos sitios. No puedo vivir para siempre—y este problema del terreno me molesta muchísimo”.
       Parecería—y esto le pareció al chico a este punto, que el anciano estaba esperando morir, talvez esperando todo el día, desde que se levantó de la cama.
       “Oh”, dijo el chico, no sabiendo qué más decir.
       El anciano tenía documentos en sus manos, documentos firmados que el abogado le había dado para que peleara en la corte, recibos firmados que justo habían aparecido un día de la nada y al día siguiente se habían convertido oficiales, y el anciano miraba fijamente a éstos, a treinta centímetros de su cara. Él dejó caer los documentos en la mesa, y lentamente llegó a su cama, donde se tiró de espaldas y se relajó.  Su cuerpo entero estaba relajado, y al día siguiente, cuando el abogado llegó, él notó la relajación en su cuerpo tirado en la cama, y al chico en la esquina, él estaba llorando, y el abogado pensó: ¡Cielos! él llora tan fácilmente por tales cosas—y le pidió al chico los documentos, que para el chico eran sin importancia; su abuelo había muerto.

# 451 (14-Agosto-2009)

Sons With no Mothers


(July of 2007, to December)

Every time I meet Anselmo (a man in his mid-fifties), or J.B. ((a man in his early twenties) (two sons without mothers)) they’d greet me, walking with or without friends, down the streets or in the main plaza of Huancayo, Peru, they put their hands out to me.
       “Hello Lee, old friend,” they’d say to me. I’d tell them, “You have no blood in your face.”
       It’s a bad and cold insult to a Peruvian. But deserving in their cases, and they know it. And it doesn’t faze them one iota.
       And they’d tell me some sad story of how little they had. They always made it very sad, they even believed what they are telling me to be truth, yes indeed, they believed in their own lies. Can you beat that! I suppose because they’ve been telling them so long.
       They haven’t lived much, I tell myself—for poor they may be in their own eyes, but they dress well, eat well, and have a roof over their heads, money in their pockets, and most of their kind own land handed down to them from some deceased family member to another. I tell myself, they should go to Haiti to see real poverty.
      These are sons with no mothers.
      They spend another person’s money and say they are broke only to ask for more money to borrow at a later date, what they can’t get with a smile, they take with a smirk. Try to get one cent from them— god-forbid a dollar, out of them. It’s impossible; it would be like bleeding a live horse dry.
       Every time I see them, in front of other friends (and they are not alone in this category), I wonder how they are swindling one another, or thinking of how to swindling one another, without the other knowing: what kind of blood is in their veins? I ask myself: black blood.

       At one time Anselmo received $1500-dollars from me to do something for me, something he never did do for me, nor intended to do for me. And it did not have any effect on him knowing he had intentions of doing for me nor paying me back because he knew he couldn’t, so he quickly spent the money so he’d not have to pay back, and what did he do with the money but pay his daughter’s college tuition; well at least he didn’t hit the nearest bar or casino.
       Fine, we had confrontation on that as you may well have guessed, when the time came to produce the service or return the money, and Anselmo begged I give him time to pay what he owed—six months wasn’t good enough, we had this confrontation; of course what he really meant was: to give him time, in hopes I’d forget he owed me the money or service and forgive him of the sum out of kindness, and out of being so very poor.
        “You can trust me for it,” he’d said, “aren’t we friends?”
        “It’s not a matter of trust, perhaps some friendship, otherwise I´d never have given the money” I exclaimed, “It’s a matter of deception now.”
       “I haven’t got it,” he reiterated, and thereafter reiterated and reiterated, until my wife and I got blue in the face, not him, it didn’t bother him. I know we all know folks like this.
       “You have it,” I said, “it’s just you have other plans for it.”
       “You don’t understand,” he’d comment, adding “don’t worry about it, I’ll pay you soon,” so, Anselmo would say with a near pouting voice (if anything he was a good actor, he missed his calling).
       “When?” my wife would ask him, and of course he had a thousand answers at his fingertips, from those long enduring years of grabbing one lie after the other when needed, like carrots out of the ground when hungry; he had a good memory, that is a prerequisite for a liar, lest he find himself in a bind and having to tell one lie on top of another, and god forbid, he forget which came first.
       “Soon!” he’d say, “I’ll have it soon!”

       “By gosh,” I told him to his face, one forenoon, “you’re ahead of a noble and prestigious institution, and you can’t pay such a small sum back, as if you and I are worse enemies, not best friends, what kind of a man are you?”
       At that time he was going to all kinds of engagements and charging people for this and that, and I suppose that is how he got those five, one hundred dollar bills together that he was to pay me back with, and be forgiven the rest of the sum.
       I told him a few times, “You have no blood in your face,” and he’d stare at me with those blameless droopy dog like eyes of his, no neck to speak of, overweight by fifty-pounds if not more, trying to look above suspicion, as if I was ripping his heart out of his chest. Nothing, exactly nothing bothered him, cold as a fish on ice.
       Such people spend another person’s money on themselves or for vanity’s sake, and they never, ever pay. Just try to get a cent, and god forbid, a dollar from them.
       Well, we are back being friends, I have buried the anger, the hurt, and the so called hatchet, as they say, and since he never did pay dollars back for that last $1000-dollars, he did pay in another way, and to be honest, had it turned out any other way, this story would never have been written, so I give him credit if need be for that. And as for the young guy, I’ll just leave him out, and hope he’ll find the righteous path somewhere in his lifetime.
      

No: 421 (written: 6-22-2009; revised 9-4-2009 and again, revised 5-2014) 

Big Blow, off Maui (12/2001)

It was dark and there was water in the streets and no lights on alongside of the road, and the trees were blown down everywhere. I had heard once we got off the plane at the Maui Airport, heard tell, a storm was coming, it evidently had come—although not completely stretched out nor in its full bud. So I grabbed my wife’s hand and got into the escorted tourist van, and the driver drove in the direction of our hotel; which was off the Western Harbor.
       The streets everywhere, and everything along the roadway was full of water, gutters filled to the rim, and cars splashing water as they drove by us— tossing water every-which-way, and just everywhere it was as if a deluge was in the makings; plus, the wind was picking up progressively—more and more, to who knows when it would reach its zenith.
       The moon could be scarcely seen overhead, it had dark faded clouds around it, some through it; and my best guess was, we had plenty of rough weather brewing ahead of us in all directions.
       Along the roadway to the hotel all the streetlights were out, only car headlights were visible, as the storm fermented, which was to a the likeness of a hurricane.  Matter of fact, we had turned off the headlights at one point, to disembark the van, and it was as dark as the inside of an empty barrel.
       Matter of fact, it was hard for our driver to spot the sign recognizing our hotel. Once the driver dropped us off he was gone like a flying fish.
       This was our second try to get a vacation to Maui, the first try was on 9/11, can you beat that, and at the very time the towers in New York City was being hit, we were sitting in the airplane  in Minneapolis, Minnesota,  and at the moment the first tower was hit, the motors were gearing up for takeoff of our jet, and then, when the second tower was hit, we were inside the airport looking at it happening: then came the realization, why our plane was halted; and now this storm of all things.

        As my wife Rosa and I walked to the back of the hotel, where we noticed a single light, we found a plaza type area with a pool in the middle of it: trees and all types of greenery were blowing in the wind, along with water from the sea which was perhaps one hundred yards away, along with branches flying, and crisscrossing from one hotel to the other in flight, and trees pulled out from their roots laying all about, a number of trees, along with colorful birds—dead as doornails, and I got slapped in the face and thighs with some debris.
      Apparently, most everyone had gone inside one or the other parts of the doubled sectioned hotel we were at, the lower bottom floor of the first section was the one serving hot meals in a cafeteria style restaurant, Rosa and I were viciously hungry. The other part that was opened was next to the restaurant, where the hotel desk was, where a clerk remained on duty—by candlelight.
      We talked to the hotel clerk, got our keys to our rooms, and we went and put our luggage in it, but there were no lights.  As we went to and fro the rain was unrelenting, and the dark sky covered the earth like a cloak, a sinister, ominous seeping sea, roaring as if in front of us.
  
       “Let’s see what they got left to eat,” I voiced to Rosa “we ought to eat something before morning,” standing at the outside doorway of the hotel on the other side of the pool. We’d have to make our way across the plaza, to where the café was, heavy blows of water from the sea being carried by the winds striking everything, everywhere with madness, hence we fought our way across the plaza, nonetheless. When we got to the café, the floor was drenched, under water by an inch or two, here and there, and looking about, there was artificial lighting from overhanging gas lanterns.
       “We haven’t had a storm like this in a decade,” said some voice behind the counter, serving food.  
       The food looked like it was mostly picked over by scavengers, it was a dinner buffet; a sign read “$25.00!” The undersigned was the manager’s name, with a note that read “No exceptions.”
       So we had scarps of food, for $50-dollars, that McDonalds would have thrown in the garbage can. Oh well, that’s the luck of the storm. Another peeve, there was no place to sit down, we were like trees with no roots, very uncomfortable; I think Rosa and I just looked at each other, shook our heads, and laughed, a five million dollar hotel feeding scraps for fifty-dollars, you can’t beat that for rudeness, or penny-pinching.
  
       As we finished our food we made our way back through the hard pushing and twisting winds, guarding our faces this time from the clashing branching flying every which way, and the deafening sounds to the ears of the storm. I hung onto Rosa as if onto a little dinghy—took a couple of deep breaths then we made the last few steps to the doorway to our hotel, like cabooses attached to a train: up two flights of stairs to our room, locked it,  and said a long prayer, and fell to sleep.

No: 419/ 6-22-2009 (reedited, 8-22-2009)
Dedicated to my sidekick, Rosa

Bavarian’s Sun


((1970, Augsburg, Germany) (The Sun, the Potato Fields, the Inn))

Part II out of III



It was early forenoon, somewhat warming up from a chill ascending that had been left over from the night before, within the Bavarian valley—my bones lightly shivered. The sun had melted most of the light patches of snow on the ground, a few molehill remaining, —as we drove alongside the potato fields. It was spring in the valley but the sun was extremely tepid. Chris Steward drove slowly alongside the roadside, women were planting in the potato fields, and their backs were bent over like hunchbacks, then rising carrying whatever I presume was leftover from the winter thaw, in their aprons.
      As we rode alongside the cemetery, a little way further from the potato fields, a burial had just started. Chris (a German-Jewish young lady I had been dating), said, “My grandmother is buried here, I want to see her, I will also be buried here someday, right beside her in this cemetery (she had leukemia).”

       We got out of the car and walked through those thick Jewish-German cast-iron gates. I said, “Grüss Gott,” to a few folks walking by as we approached the gravestone to Chris’ grandmother.
       I’m not sure if it’s customary or not, but people never speak to you in graveyards, so it seems, it’s as if all of a sudden they stopped being sociable, or on the other hand perchance I was not sensitive enough. I understand if they’re in prayer, but they didn’t look it, just passersby—anyhow, what did I know, I was a young lad, and it was all observation to me.
      We stopped by her grandmother’s gravestone, and she spoke something in German, I watched two custodians digging a hole, leaving the dirt on one side of the hole, as to be used to fill it back up later on.
      They had Bavarian hats on, and high leather boots, and I stared at the grave to be, and then at Chris. And then the two men stopped shoveling dirt, and they straightened up their backs some, took a drink out of a quart bottle of beer that had rested alongside their shovels. Yes shovels, this was 1970, the shovel was still in use.  
       “What a day to die and be buried on…” I thought in a whisper to my mind, but I guess every day is somebody’s short day.
       “I want to be buried right here, right with my grandmother, she spent a lot of time raising me,” said Chris, with a near flat tone to her voice—as if unwelcoming the day, as if the day was soon to come.
       (I, knowing her father was killed by the Nazis, he was a professor at a university, and her mother and grandmother, along with her, had escaped to London until the finality of the war, WWII,  in the early part of 1945, her being only a year and a half old at the time—)

       It was getting late in the morning, and I was getting hungry. We hadn’t stayed too long at the potato fields, nor at the cemetery—but just getting there and going back and forth to the car consumed up the morning, yet perhaps too long in the valley. I was glad the day wasn’t over, I wanted to do other things, and it was a lovely time to do them in.
       We drove out of the valley, past many an old style Bavarian Inn and guesthouse, and just houses in particular.  And I guess it was good to be down in the clearing, in the so called dell or basin of the valley.   One could feel the last of the winter winds, with the basting of the sun, and the leftover snow, tainted by the sun, in consequence, the end of a season, is like a death so it reminded me of, especially after visiting the cemetery.
        We saw a guesthouse, the innkeeper sat in his chair outside basting in the sun cozy like at table on the sidewalk, and beside him his wife stood enjoying the fresh cool air. And we stopped the car, walked up to the inn, and I said “Grüss Gott” and they returned the greeting, and we sat in the guesthouse and had lunch, we had had our share of the morning sun and it was nice to be greeted—
      

No: 510 ((11-1-2009) (written on the day of life)) Dedicated to Chris Steward. • Note: This story, “Bavarian Sun” was taken out of the author’s book “A Romance in Augsburg” written in 2000-2001, Chapter Five, “The Potato Fields, and rewritten as a short story.  Reedited, 5-2014. /Reedited 7-2015

Winter Houses



(A Chick Evens story out of Minnesota, based on fact, 1957) 


The Icy-Mississippi



Snow is on the sidewalks, and in the streets, a thin layer covering the Mississippi River, on top of four-inches of ice —the houses and buildings are all lit, fires glowing in hearths, furnaces burning red hot, as I rush out into the cold early Saturday morning brisk air to sell newspapers “Five Cents!” I’ll soon be yelling once I get downtown, I tell myself.
       It is December, 1957 and I’m ten-years old, just turned ten-years old in October matter-of-fact.
       I see people sitting in their houses as I walk by: men, women and children—as if their minds are unoccupied, it’s 6:00 a.m., some of the houses are covered with blotches of snow, Minnesota snow can get heavy if not sticky at times; some even appear to smile back at me as I glance from one white house to another, they all seem white, one to the other—with their shadowy silhouettes.
       In the quiet morning cold, the houses seem to whisper to me—as if they have secrets to tell—but I’m too young to stop and listen, I’m not yet a hunter of tales.  Moreover, they can only tell me things I am too young to fully understand.
       Some of the houses are completely dark, solid gray dark, inside those windows; I suppose the people haven’t crawled out of bed yet. In other houses, I hear laughter as I walk down Jackson Street to the St. Paul, Pioneer Press Newspaper, to get my stack of papers to sell on the corner of Forth and Robert Streets. I even can see the icy-Mississippi River from where I stand.
              I pass a dozen more houses, two, then three dozen, now I pass tall clusters and stiff looking buildings—with locked tight doors, but I know they will open soon for the Saturday morning window-shoppers.
       I start to yell “St. Paul Pioneer Press! …FIVE CENTS!”
       Slow moving, and slow speaking people walk by and drive by in cars. I think my business is the most interesting in town—but of course at ten-years old, who wouldn’t think so. There even seems to be a touch of romanticism in this paper business, I haven’t a clue what’s in the paper though, nor care.

   
No: 539 ((12-5-2009) (reedited 5-12-2010)) SA

Autumn in Niagara (1999)



Autumn in Niagara—I thought about going to Niagara a few times, then one afternoon in autumn while the early afternoon sun crept through my window, seeing the autumn leaves of Minnesota floating off the trees onto the ground in my backyard on Albemarle Street: thin, and tanned they were, as if in a stage of old age, I made up my mind. 

       I’m always anxious, if not surprised to see autumn appear, but this autumn I told myself, this beautiful autumn it would be different, in that I’d fly up to Buffalo New York, rent a car, drive from there to Niagara, and see the fall leaves; instead of enjoying the long beautiful autumn of Minnesota, I’d spend a four day weekend   seeing Niagara Falls, and I could even compare autumns.
       I love the movie and reading, and usually they inspire me to see places, and the movie: “Niagara,” with Marilyn Monroe, of which I seen a half dozen times, had done just that, inspired me: and so I’d become the Dharma Bum for the weekend.     
        I learned one main thing in life—and perhaps one can put that into a travelogue, —that being: if you count on waiting for someone else to travel with you, you may never go, and if you count on them on a trip to make you happy, you’re going to be disappointed, and if you let them take charge of your life, that is exactly what they will do—and it is usually not for the better, rather in self-interest… So I traveled on the moment, and mostly alone.
       Well, I traveled light too, sometimes too light, a small suitcase will do me just fine, and what does not fit into it, I simply will have to do without, or  purchase it at  my destination—it is as simple as that.  Why tug lugged here and there, one usually uses only a small portion of what they tug around anyhow.

        —So here I was, at Niagara Falls, in October, my birth month: I had bade farewell to Minnesota, and all the little bums back there, and I washed my face, on a fresh looking towel in my room, and walked out to meet Niagara Falls, it was as close as a hop-skip-and-jump, and along the way, I ended up picking up the autumn leaves in the park next to my cabin, they looked like firewood, heated to a bright red-hot and yellow, orange, cheese like color. Most pleasant to the eyes, I told myself: and huge, more so than Minnesota leaves: all that water I suppose.

       “What is going to happen to this leaf?” I asked myself, holding it in my right palm, looking deep at its veins—at its splendorous twilight of deep auburn colors, added: with God’s personal touch. Happy I was, and no one to say: you silly boy.  No, I was sober, or perhaps drunk on life—   that’s the way to live: all alone and free in the soft leaves of autumn, and besides the leaves, it was seeing the great waterfalls, and hearing the rushing torrents of the river—and standing under the great somber sky and clouds, calling up on my cellphone, my dear and long-lasting friend Diane Horton, while standing next to the falls and asking her “Guess where I’m at?”  And of course she couldn’t, and when I said “Niagara Falls,” she said “I believe you!” and the adventure of traveling continued; what more could a man ask of God, than to have a colorful and beautiful autumn day, in Niagara, other than, Minnesota, and incidentally, New York comes close to a Minnesota’s autumn.

Note:  Written while in Lima, Peru, 5-29-2008. Written with the intentions to let the reader know that traveling can be as much fun, if not more, alone, than with someone needy; it is of course a matter of choice, but one needs to look at and count the cost, for when you take someone with different expectations with you disappointment is usually not far away. Reedited, 5-2010.

Christmas in Luxembourg, 1975

Ville de Remich

Part Christmas Eve Day


From Germany, I headed west, to Luxembourg, crossed the boards with little to no difficulties. I went by car, a 1967-VW, dull green in color, it was not the best running of cars but it seemed it could make at two-hundred and fifty miles, so I decided to take a quick trip.  The road was dotted with quaint, rural hamlets that most people associate with fairy tales. It was midwinter, and winter in Luxembourg, is not as extreme   as it can be in nearby countries, and I had been to Europe a dozen times, and during this tour duty, I was stationed near Darmstadt, Germany. For a land locked country, it had what I would call pretty standard climate.  It was a day before Christmas. The trees were filled with crystal like frost, as I drove through an area that seemed the landscape had its share of wooded extremes. A very beautiful and pleasant area, it was brisk in the woods, and when I drove out of it, it was cool, with a warm sun leaning on top of my car.  I had my two boys, Cody and Shawn with me, twins; they were five the previous October. I found myself in a little quaint village called Ville de Remich, I didn’t see much of it, I stopped the car to have breakfast, the street was of cobblestone, and the guesthouse, was old Germanic in style, the owner with an apron on, looked at me and my two boys, it was Christmas Eve morning, and no one was in the guesthouse, no guests that is, no one but the proprietor,  and he was I fear about to say: we are closed, but his wife walked up, and asked,  
       “…do you need something?”
       “Yes,” I said, “for me and my boys, a room for the night and breakfast.”
       “Well, ok,” she said, “but tomorrow is Christmas, and I do hope you will not be staying over that day, we are always closed.”
       I assured her we had just come for the day and evening, that we’d like to have breakfast if possible, and we’d be gone early Christmas Morning. In between, we would go to the nearby cemetery I noticed on the way down, and climb those 100-steps up to its domain, and visit the city. And she and her elder husband both looked at each other, then back at my twin boys, and me, “Ok,” they confirmed, and I filled out a guest slip.

Breakfast

       The boys and I sat outside around a wooded table, and chairs, my car parked alongside the road, and cars being driven by, it was chilly, but not cold, cold, everything in the café area was put up on tables, the chairs and ashtrays, and so forth, a message they were not expecting any company on Christmas Eve day.
       I ordered eggs and bacon, toast and jam, milk and coffee for the breakfast, and all three of us, Shawn, Cody and me, sat waiting, I think our mouths were salivating, we were hungry.  I had thought she understood the order, she brought three pouched eggs, which I did not know how to eat, but would learn quick, I had to ask him how to go about it, “You just crack the egg on the top with your spoon, the shell,” he said, “then dig out the inside of the egg and eat it.”
       I had a hard time doing that for some odd reason, can you imagine the boys.  Anyhow, we did not get bacon, but we got bread and butter and jam, and that was that, and the boys did get hot milk and I got coffee, and that again was that, I dare not complain, although I left a kind of empty blank face, when I paid for the meal.

       And then we did go on to see that cemetery, and the village and  that night I bought two large beers and drank them down, and kind of stared out the windows, looked at my boys, cut, blond hair, blue eyes.  They were good boys, never complained much, or cried much, only fought and laughed with one another too much, but not creating any profound disturbance.
      


Part Two: Xmas Day, 1975


       It was Christmas day, and we had said our goodbyes to the owners of the guesthouse, and had about 250-miles to travel back to Darmstadt, or thereabouts. As we got on our way, it seemed to be a long road back, our brakes were going out, mental on metal, squeaking and burning up, and you could smell them.  The twins knew something was wrong but not exactly what. As we drove further, into a hilly area, the sky turned dark, and the transmission was jamming in first gear, couldn’t get it out, thus I drove in first gear for miles.  The heaters had stopped working and the fan belt had broken, the car spit and sputtered; when we’d get to a long hill, I turned the car off, and rolled down the hill allowing the motor to cool, and then popped the clutch to start the car again—it was indeed a long and trying morning, and extended into the afternoon, and we got no place it seemed, I mean we should have been back home by 4:00 PM, but it wasn’t going to happen, we’d make it home by 9:00 PM that evening.
       It was turning out to be a worrisome Christmas Day.  The boys had insulated snow suites on, I had purchased them in Minnesota, oversized knowing they could and would grow into them, and glad I did. Finally we drove along side of a guesthouse, it was closed for business, but in the back of the building, some lights were on. Actually, we were on a lonely road, deserted somewhat. And I really didn’t know what to do, and I put the hood up, of the car up, and knocked on the door, and asked to purchase some food for the kids (the woman of the house, brought out sandwiches for the boys and me), and they speaking German, and me a little German, along with English, and sign language, I got the message through. The middle aged man in the house saw the car, took a look at  the motor, knew we were in trouble, and went back to his garage, and found an old fan belt, it was too big for my car, very loose the say the least.
       “You got to drive slowly,” the German said, indicating if I didn’t and if I went over too many bumps, the belt would fly off and perhaps get entangled into my motor, and loosen up or break my fan.
       Well, what could I say but thank you and I had a hot cup of coffee, and the boys got some more bread and cheese with ham, and they would not take any money, it was Christmas, and they felt they just couldn’t.  It all took an hour or so, and I felt I was intruding, but in life to get a step ahead, is exactly what you got to do, intrude, lest you die where you stand, waiting for somebody to say something only to find out they will say nothing. And I think they both bite into their lips, wanting to say, “Wish we could have you stay until morning,” it was now about 3:00 PM, we had left at about 11:00 AM, and it was now even darker, gray dark, not black dark. A snow storm was building up slowly.

       When we arrived at our apartment in Babenhausen, Germany (although we had actually left from Darmstadt on the trip), the boys were tired and fell to sleep like two little sheep, and I sat up, had a beer, a cigarette,  and was thankful for the trip, and got rid of that junk heap of a car a week later.

Written: 5-30-2008 (Original name: “An Inn, in Luxembourg.”)